[LOVE Sharing] Remember How To Be Enriched

Yesterday one of the teamily Rose asked, “How did Atmadayaki (Atmadayananda) enrich you last year?”  Coincidentally, the night before having a causing training call with Atmadayaki, Camus was teased when she had just got into the call, “Always remember having the first Skype call with you (Camus)… OH~ NO, I CAN’T… IT’S NOT POSSIBLE… NO… DON’T FORCE ME…”

Camus replied Rose that Atmadayaki was speaking in Camus’s listening, but not what she wanted to say.  Camus relived the memory at once and provided further explanation, “At that moment, I had very clear intention to go IA, but full of fear to have the breakthrough for the ultimate transformation.  I put all the obstacles in front of me to make me comfort so that I could tell myself – it was not my fault but many difficulties stopped me to go through of it.  I was the victim, and she (Atmadayaki) forced me and made me upset…” 

Her mind was so messy at that moment.  She really wanted to attend the program, at the same time, she stopped her own self because of fear, so she wanted to find someone to bear the responsibility of the failure to attend the program.

It was inauthentic, but at that moment, Camus did not know, but what Atmadayaki had done was she was not trying to prove she was right, or she wanted Camus to do what she wanted; but she helped Camus to clarify what made her in chaos and how to settle such obstacles practically.

Atmadayaki was not success in the call, in fact, but she created the space for Camus.  Camus shared with Rose that at the end of the call, Camus told Atmadayaki and Ying Ying, “I had dreamt of Swamiji and Yukteswar Giri for 2 nights and it is sure that I will dreamt of one of them again tonight.  I will ask them either one how to settle…”  After the enriching call, Camus went to bed.  Once she closed her eyes, Swamiji suddenly “appeared”! HE asked Camus, “Do you really want to go to Inner Awakening?”  She replied very clearly, “YES.”  HE then said, “Let’s go!”

Never forget this experience.  It is not just because of the “presence” of Swamiji, but the experience on the Science of Enriching: Atmadayaki‘s enriching call let Camus to face her issues and the most important is Swamiji will take the responsibility to finalize the enriching.

Camus’s experience was not end at the glimpse of HIM.  It was just a start for the experiment on HIS science of LIFE.  Some may think because of Swamiji’s “special” giving, Camus can have the experience and transformation in a very short of time.  It is PARTLY true, but not the EXACTLY fact.  HE sends the gift to everyone, but few people realize that THEY SHOULD TAKE THE RESPONSIBILITY to receive it.

Swamiji always says, “It is not difficult and it is not easy.” Once facing the obstacles Camus put at the front by her own self authentically, something then happened – it looked like miracles but actually not; it was science that she did not realize but HE showed her in her life practically, which was similar to no concept for the Newton’s Law but it was known that apples would fall to the ground.

Finally, at the end of the call, Camus thanked Atmadayaki again that she always reminds their first Skype call.  Every time when Camus meets Atmadayaki, she cannot help to hug her tight with her tears – she was almost lost the chance for getting rid of her suffering, and it might be the last chance for her transformation, who knows?  Because Atmadayaki was very clear what she needed to do in the right context, the enriching happened and the cosmos was moved for it!

It is a very beautiful experience that Camus would like to share all of you in the sangha.  Wish you all the best on enriching :)